As my 30th birthday creeps closer
(its now one week away to be exact)
I cant help but look both backwards and forwards.
30 isn't old.
I know that.
But it is OLDER,
and its hard to not look
at where I am,
what I have,
and what I have made of
this life so far.
People, like wine, I think only improve with age.
Right now I feel more myself then I ever have before.
More comfortable. More confident.
Happier to be who I am.
Truthfully
I am happy to be turning 30.
In some odd way I feel like leaving my 20's will allow me to
leave behind some of the mistakes and trauma and stupidity of that decade.
I will remember the good, and
let go of the bad.
I cant help but think
that my next ten years
are going to hold some
really fabulous things.
And I'm looking forward to it.
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My path is getting clearer.
My goals and desires are
beginning to show themselves
(and my understanding of
what I DON'T want is growing)
And now I think I am finally equipped
to put everything I have
into attaining what is really
important to me.
So now I'm ready to bring on the 30's. :)
