Reasons to be happy list for right now:

blue skies outside. Today it will be in the 80's. Its been a good couple of weeks etsy custom order wise. Going to the state fair on Friday. I'm relatively on top of things at work. Tonight I will make a leather grass cuff (very fun to make). Today I am wearing a non matching striped cardi with a patterned tank top. Orange toe nails. Coffee. Making a list. Leaving the house with wet hair. The grapes are growing. Hopefully I will see the ocean this weekend. And my cat is pretty awesome.

PS. This is not one of those lists that I am making because I am super happy and positive at this moment, its more like the kind that I am making in an attempt to convince myself... FYI... we shall see if it is successful.

wednesdays

last night was an ok night that ended badly.

and now this morning I am feeling off.

Perhaps its the lack of sleep

(4 hours does not cut it)

perhaps its the fact that this mindless and often times very boring desk job sometimes feels like it is sucking the life out of me.

Perhaps it is just one of those weeks when life sucks the life out of me.

Or maybe its just a Wednesday.

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so far

its been a rough week.

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I am determined

that camping this weekend

will help to rejuvenate me.

I suppose it isn't supposed to be easy

to find the joy and beauty

and goodness in life.

Blah.

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OK. Time to take a deep breath

and get on with it.