thoughts on turning 30

As my 30th birthday creeps closer

(its now one week away to be exact)

I cant help but look both backwards and forwards.

30 isn't old.

I know that.

But it is OLDER,

and its hard to not look

at where I am,

what I have,

and what I have made of

this life so far.

People, like wine, I think only improve with age.
Right now I feel more myself then I ever have before.
More comfortable. More confident.
Happier to be who I am.

Truthfully

I am happy to be turning 30.

In some odd way I feel like leaving my 20's will allow me to

leave behind some of the mistakes and trauma and stupidity of that decade.

I will remember the good, and

let go of the bad.

I cant help but think

that my next ten years

are going to hold some

really fabulous things.

And I'm looking forward to it.

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My path is getting clearer.

My goals and desires are

beginning to show themselves

(and my understanding of

what I DON'T want is growing)

And now I think I am finally equipped

to put everything I have

into attaining what is really

important to me.

So now I'm ready to bring on the 30's. :)