I asked for it,
and then I got just exactly what I wanted to get.
It was actually quite lovely.
There are certain people in this world (some of whom I have never met in person) who I would really like to live next door to. That way we could meet for tea or a glass of wine in the evening and chat about our lives and loves and losses and all the things that we have learned.
It would really be a delightful neighborhood.
sometimes I am amazed by the resilience of people,
I am amazed by the way that things continue on, like whatever tragedy or magical happening that just occurred in your life doesn't change everything in the world around you like you expect it to. I guess what it changes is how you see everything in the world around you - the things themselves don't actually change much at all. What changes, is actually you.
And sometimes I still do stupid things that I wish I wouldn't do. I will probably always occasionally (though I hope less and less often) do these things. I can regret them and I can learn from them, but holding onto it will do no good. Feel it. Learn from it. Try to do better next time. But discard the guilt. Just toss it out the next open window you pass by and don't give it another thought. Its really the only rational thing that can be done with it.