thoughts to start off July…

I want to be more thankful, even though it’s not November.
I am going to stretch more.
Its so strange how much things can change. And how quickly, without us hardly realizing it.
Learn from my doubts. Don’t be afraid of them.
Don’t keep putting things off. If I want to do it, do it now.

I think also that there is certainly such a thing as spending too much time thinking about things.
But I like thinking. Its part of who I am. So I think I will always make time for it.
It will always be a thing that I do.
Even this morning when I didn’t get enough sleep and have a long list of things to do before we leave for vacation this weekend and I can easily see myself becoming rather grumpy.
The point is that even this morning I will still take the time to really think.
I guess this is because I know that in the past when I don’t, things seem to not turn out so well as when I do.

I have a confession. I am not nearly as good at this whole self-care thing as I should be or as I like to pretend to be. I think sometimes I try to sound like I am better at it then I am. I would like to be better. I think I should be better. But alas, I am not. Sometimes even when doing fun things that should be relaxing, I am still stressed, thinking about all the things I need to do, or else I am doing them because I was pressured or guilted into it, not because I want to. All of these reasons make it a whole lot harder to enjoy whatever the thing is that really should be enjoyable.

So another thought: even if something is technically a “fun” thing to do, I don’t have to do it if I don’t want to. Spend time on what is valuable to me, not what other people think is valuable to me.

And I need to post more photos of the outdoors.