The last few days I have felt a little blue... its been one of those times when after lots of effort, what I wanted didn't happen, so I figured the best thing to do was to throw more effort at it. Work. Time. Whatever I could. It was a decent distraction, but distraction only lasts so long. And after all that I have to face the fact that effort does not at all guarantee that you road you are on will take you to what you want.
So I am now thinking
that perhaps less effort
is a better answer.
Or at least effort
So on these grey days I am trying to notice the way the dark sky makes colors brighter and to take pleasure in painted toenails and comfy flip flops. When I feel a wave of something negative I pick up a book for distraction. I write a poem. I wrap a present and put it under the tree. I draw or try to think of a pretty phrase to describe the feeling.
I don't try to find someone else to fix it,
because it isn't something that anyone
else will be able to fix.
Who knows if this is
the best method,
but its what I am
I also ended up taking a very random
and very rainy trip to the coast
yesterday. I did manage a little walk
in the water even while we were being
pelted with rain. But the ocean is
pretty awesome (and healing)
even in the dark and the rain.
which I will show you all tomorrow
when their glue has dried.
the mail today.
They are all pictures that were
in a 19th century Pictorial
I cant wait to use them.
Hope you are doing
with your Monday night.